Another Sunday

Amazing, isn’t it? How an entire week can go by, when you’re busy, busy, busy every day. Yet nothing really gets accomplished.

Yep, this week was one of those.

I spent most of every day this week still trying to find work. Filling out online applications (again), for all the same places that I’ve already filled them out for. Calling everyone I could find to call. Still getting the same results…

Nothing. Nada. Zilch.

So, I broke down and went to Houston on Wednesday to see about joining the SIU. The unlicensed seamans union. I’ve been an applicant with the AMO (licensed officers union) since at least December and have had 1 (yes only1) possible job. That job was gone before I could even return the phone call! Since then, they don’t answer the phone, they don’t return calls, I’ve pretty much lost hope that they actually have any work.

Of course I would rather use the license I’ve spent 30+ years and $50,000+++ to earn! But if I have to sail as a deckhand, I’m perfectly willing to do that too. Anything out at sea is better than working at McDonalds or Domino’s, which seem to be the only jobs open to me on the beach. 😦

Shit! 2 college degrees and 30 years of experience to earn the highest license there is out there, and what does it get me? NOTHING! Not a damn thing!

Yeah, I’ve had it pretty good up until the last couple of years. I was able to save a few bucks. I was able to travel and enjoy life. I did really love a few of my jobs. Never really hated any of them. But after almost 2 years of unemployment and unable to find ANY work that will even come close to paying the bills, I have to say I am getting more than a little bit pissed off.

Yes. Pissed off! Frustrated. Angry. Depressed. Un-motivated. I could go on…

I try to find other things to do, to earn a few bucks. Writing/painting/photography, etc. I still haven’t sold even one item. Yeah, it’s getting very depressing. I can hardly motivate myself to work on any of that stuff. First of all, I feel like I need to concentrate on finding a ‘real’ job. So spend hours/day looking for work. By the time I’m done with that, I really don’t feel like doing anything creative. I don’t even want to look at the computer anymore, much less spend hours blogging. 😦

I keep meaning to blog more. This was meant to be a much more interactive blog. Where I could talk to people all over the world about different places and how things were there. I thought I would always have interesting sea stories and adventures from my travels to write about. But I haven’t been working in so long and so can’t afford to travel anymore, so I wonder what can I write about now?

What is interesting about my life at home? Nothing, really. I’m just another ordinary, broke and struggling American. I do have more political interest than most. I could write about that. But every time I do that, people seem to drop me like a hot potato (most not even commenting as to why).

So I’ve tried to keep the politics toned down, even tho it’s one of my main passions. I am 100% in support of freedom, for everybody, on all issues, all the time. Do whatever you want as long as you don’t hurt anybody else. That’s my motto and that’s what America was founded to promote. Too bad ‘we’ve’ decided to throw that whole ‘freedom’ thing out in the garbage pile. 😦

Oh no, I have not forgotten. We still do have our ‘freedom’ of speech. Sort of. Remember ‘political correctness’? How often are you seeing censored posts on Twitter and Facebook? I see them plenty! Yeah, we may still have a little bit of ‘freedom’ of speech, but as for the rest of the Bill of Rights, all but the 3rd Amendment have been constantly and continuously violated.

Am I the only one who’s noticed? Who cares?

Then why is no one even willing to discuss it? Even on a blog? Yeah, I’m sure plenty of people are actually self-censoring. Afraid they’ll be hauled off sooner or later for violating some trumped up anti-constitutional ‘law’ on ‘hate’ speech, or defamation or some other crap. I think I will keep on saying what I will say until the day they decide to haul me off. I’ve already self-censored myself enough (in fact, I think I’ve even lost work over what I’ve said and not said). Screw it, I’m done playing games!

I’ve worked my ass off my entire life, NOT to wind up an old bag lady, wandering the streets eating cat food. If after everything I’ve done to avoid that, working hard, saving everything I could, investing every extra dollar, starting businesses, rental properties, etc, and I’m STILL going to wind up like that? Why do I even try anymore???

My birthday is coming up again soon. I’m getting to the age where I feel like I don’t have too many more years ahead of me where I’ll be able to work or to travel. I want to LIVE those few years I have left. I don’t want to spend them in fear. Broke, afraid, trapped.

I think and think and wonder every day- HOW can I manage to do that- without having to win the lottery???

9 thoughts on “Another Sunday

  1. Discussions on the internet are not private. “Politically correct” has changed meaning in the past few months. It now means that one particular individual can say anything he wants and everyone else needs to watch it. Things will not improve anytime soon.

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    • Oh yeah, I get that! Nothing is really private anymore. We are living out George Orwells worst nightmare as far as that is concerned. I’ll always wonder why more people aren’t concerned about it. To me, privacy is one of the more important building blocks of any decent society.
      Yes, I agree, some people have more rights than others. 😦

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  2. Hi, I’m Rob!
    I just saw your blog at Bayou Renaissance Man & came over to see what’s happening.. My Dad was a merchant marine (Capt before it was all over) with Standard oil from 1936 till he passed away in the 70’s, I choose a different route.
    Two points to mention…

    Snowden came out & told everybody that the US govt was reading all your mail & listing to all your phone calls & no one cared. No one cares now.
    That has to say something about “freedom” in this corporate controlled society we live in.

    My second point was earning a living. When I retired in 2013 I ended up “workcamping” at an Amusement park in Iowa for a 6 month stretch. I lived in my RV & walked to work, (FWIW) I enjoyed it a lot!
    It turns out there are a lot of people, not retired who live this way. I was unaware of this until that stint at Adventureland.
    A summer job of around 6 months (lot’s of places to work, many being camp host jobs), then maybe the beet harvest in North Dakota (2 weeks to a month) then Amazon and and the next 3 month (winter) off or still another job.

    I don’t know anything about you or your economic needs but I do know that in 2011 I had no idea about nomadic work in today’s world and in 2013 I was part of it.
    There are options besides flipping burgers or delivering pizzas (until the jobs are automated).

    I’m following your blog now & I’d like to wish you the best of luck in what ever you do next!

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    • Hi Rob,
      Thanks for stopping by. I’m glad you liked my blog and I really appreciate your very nice and thoughtful comments.
      I agree with you about the lack of concern re: Snowdens revelations, I was so sad and disappointed when I realized that almost no one cared. I’ve pretty much lost all hope for living any kind of free lifestyle here in the USA.
      I still hope to be able to find someplace in the world where perhaps they don’t have the resources we do to control our every move.
      My problem is, without the means (money/skills) to support myself in a foreign country, I’m pretty much trapped here.
      I do have property (thank goodness, it is the only thing thats been allowing me to survive these last couple of years). I could sell it all and just say the hell with it. But I would do that as a last resort. I would lose a LOT if I did that.
      Yes, I understand you about the alternative jobs. I’ve looked into quite a few of them. Issue is, that I still have the bills to pay from when I was earning a decent income. I really just can’t pay my bills with any other job than offshore. I’m barely surviving with what I earn from my properties, the few days/year I can get offshore and the few days/month I earn role-playing at Maersk and teaching (maritime) at San Jacinto Maritime college.
      If and when I can get the rest of my properties paid off, thats when I will be able to get serious about taking off and working some of those other options you mentioned.
      I might even get a bug up my butt and take off sometime sooner. I did do those kinds of jobs when I was young, so I know I CAN make it work. I didn’t have the bills to worry about then, nor was I concerned about getting deported for working illegally. Today is a much different situation for me.
      Thanks again for following me and I hope to hear from you again.


  3. Here from Peter Grant’s blog. Haven’t had time to look through your prior work posts, but it occurred to me that there is some sort of employment field as yacht crew. Have you thought of this? Either as direct employment, or as temporary re-locator, perhaps? Sorry, can’t recall what they term people who move boats around the world for owners who can’t take the time or effort to move them for seasonal changes, etc.

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    • Hi Will,
      Thanks very much for stopping by and taking the time to comment. I really appreciate it.
      Yes, I have looked into crewing on yachts. I did some of that when I was younger. It seems to me at this point the crewing agencies feel like I am too old, too fat and too female for their expensive toys.
      I would love to get into the delivery sector, but so far have not really been able to find out who is doing that or how to get into the mix. I did do one delivery to Colombia last summer, but it was a friend of mine who hired me for that job.
      Again, thanks for your comments, I hope you can come back and check out more of my posts. 🙂


  4. Wow! 2 years of no work. It’s also happening in the white collar world as well. People with engineering degrees and experience and MBA’s can’t even a phone call.

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    • Yes, I’ve been hearing that as well. Pretty soon we’ll all be replaced by robots. It is happening right now in this industry.
      I keep wondering what the ‘powers that be’ think we are all going to do with ourselves when we’re all broke and unemployed.
      I hear talk of a basic minimum wage for everyone, but I have no idea how they could possibly make that work. Where is the money going to come from for just one issue?
      I am lucky, I bought some rental properties when I was working and tried like hell to pay them all off early. The rents have been my only income except for a few days here and there.

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